Happy spring you guys! This was one of the first days I was able to comfortably wear shorts outside in months, and my poor pale legs loved every second of it. Spring is, actually, my least-favorite season. But not because I hate it. Rather, it’s just because all the other seasons are 10x more exciting. Spring to me is, well, just a waiting line that you have to stand in that leads to what we’re really all excited about: summer. Am I right?
That being said, I’ve also come to terms with something kind of glaring about myself lately. I am really, really, really, terribly, freakishly, ridiculously awful at being present. Honestly, I am the worst. If you ask anyone close to me, they’ll probably tell you that on any given day I’m stressing out about all kinds of intangible possibilities in the unforeseeable future. In short, my days are kind of like this:
Monday: I should plan a trip overseas. I wonder how much plane tickets to Thailand are? Am I not traveling enough? Am I traveling more than I can afford?
Tuesday: Am I working hard enough? Blogging enough? Writing enough? What should I be doing now to get where I want to be in 5 years? Should I be working out more?
Wednesday: I think I should go to grad school. Should I study for the GMAT? What do I want to do with my life? Am I saving enough money? Maybe I should switch banks.
…. You get the idea. My days are pretty much endless to-do lists of scattered, tenuous, maybe plans for what’s ahead. Don’t get me wrong. It’s great to think about the future. But there’s a fine line between planning and stressing for no reason, because when you stress out, you stop paying attention to what’s going on around you. And what good is the future when you have nothing to look back on to remind you how far you’ve come?
Actively stopping yourself from stressing about the future is tough, especially when you know you have so many exciting things coming up. For instance, my boyfriend and I are moving into a beautiful apartment in less than 5 weeks (more on this topic to come in future posts!), I’m going to Iceland and Scotland in the fall, and I’m freaking out (in a good way) about kick-starting my freelancing career, amongst other things. But to only think about these things and ignore my life as it’s unfolding before my eyes would be wrong. I need to stop. And if you suffer from the same crazy future-oriented mentality as me, maybe it’s time you took a step back, too.
So, you know what? I lied. Spring is a great time of year, and it should be! Let’s enjoy the hell out of it, shall we?
WHAT I WORE:
Romper + Floppy Hat | Express • Duster Cardigan | Laurenly • Lace-Up Flats | American Eagle